Today I had a chance conversation in which I made a “joking” remark about myself that was, well, more serious than joke. It was self-depreciating. It was me being unkind to me, because – simply put – I often don’t feel worthy of anything else.
My remark didn’t go unnoticed. In fact it was quietly, but pointedly addressed with some insightful advice along the lines of (paraphrasing here) if I don’t have confidence in myself nobody else will.
An accurate assessment and one that I myself preach to others despite not following that rule of thumb. It’s one of those “do as I say, not as I do” things for me. Or, perhaps more bluntly put: learn from my mistakes. Heh.
In any case, today’s conversation was necessary in my world. Particularly at this strange impasse I’ve found myself in as of late, where I do in fact feel as though I am more burden than anything else. It served as a gentle reminder that indeed I am valuable. That indeed I need to acknowledge that in myself. And that, more than anything, I need to express that to the world. Without being egotistical, or self-centred. I must simply not accept being told I’m less than I am. Especially not when it’s me telling myself.
Easier said than done. BUT… a few years back I used to write a morning post on my personal Facebook page, wherein I would start the day by stating one simple reason that I kicked ass.
So, that said… here is why I Kick Ass today:
I am hella compassionate, sympathetic and empathetic.
And that my friends will be my kick start to reminding myself that I am more than I’ve allowed my own words to say as of late.
Cheers y’all. Go be you and don’t let this weary world tell you you are anything less than f*cking spectacular.
Special Thanks to the new friend who gave me unbiased feedback today. Much appreciated, homie. More than you will ever know.